New Year, New Adventures

"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself."
— C.S. Lewis (Mere Christianity)

"It would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased."
— C.S. Lewis (Weight of Glory and Other Addresses)

Well, it's a new year. And I decided to deactivate my facebook account for at least a while, as I attempt to seek God more this month and his direction for my life. I took Kate and Joseph to see Voyage of the Dawn Treader today....it was awesome. It really spoke to me. I am such a covetous fool sometimes. Like Lucy who envies her sister Susan, I look around and see others and wish for their blessings. I feel lonely and not much loved sometimes, and wonder what it is about me that seems dull and unappealing. I think I needed the reminder that Aslan gave to Lucy in the movie, that she should not "wish herself away." Will edit this post later....have more to say on this.